Friday, December 28, 2012

Gratitude Changes Your Attitude- A Year in Review

Some of my healing team after surgery
Friends to celebrate the end of summer
Fair time is part of the fun of Groutfest

  12/12/2012 at 12:12--- I liked the rhythm and rhyme of that date and truly started to write the year end encapsulation of all that I am grateful for, but obviously I didn't finish it on time. The whirlwind of Christmas with all of its preparation and expectations interfered. That is just an excuse but sadly, this date and time will never happen again in my life time. Should I care about this? Or is this yet another missed opportunity in the hallways of insignificant events? It seems like every day the media has another event that they want us to stew about. So I stayed bravely in the moment. I'd much rather just be in the moment and grateful for the real events in my life and there are plenty.

Sibs at Thanksjuning


That is happiness; to be dissolved into something complete and great.      Willa Cather
 Reasons to be grateful:

  1. Mr. G, me, and sisters Sally, Trisha and Kathleen gathered for a new tradition: Thanksjuning in LA with brother Bob and sister in law Senja. We had no idea how much fun Thanksgiving could be in June. An added plus was it rain constantly at home when we were in sunny LA. We're making this a new tradition and I/we are very grateful for the family we have.
  2. We had another successful and happy Groutfest in August with a good family gathering, much hilarity and great fun. More joy shared, more joy increased!
  3. I had my hip replaced [with titanium] in September and am now walking just fine with no pain. What a relief! You never know how just feeling OK is until you're out of constant pain. [One of my grandsons says he can feel the metal...] I am beyond grateful to all of the friends who brought me good cheer, food and laughter during my recovery.
  4. We got to travel to take care of our grandchildren and have riotous fun with the four of them. We are especially grateful to their parents, first of all for presenting us with these beloved creatures and secondly for indulging us with sleep overs at their houses.
  5. Mr. G retired in April and he is excellent at retirement. Never a word of complaint or wandering around not knowing what to do with himself. He manages his day in a lovely fruitful manner and is glad to be home and I cannot believe what a good nurse he is.
  6. A beaming new home owner with some of the family
  7. We got to have the other Thanksgiving at my sister's new house and it was a joyous feast for many reasons, especially that we were together sharing the joy of her new place that she graciously opened up to the family.
  8. Christmas is almost always fabulous for me and what added to the fun was the Nutcracker we attended on Christmas eve. This Maurice Sendak production was the "nutty" Nutcracker, where, in high energy fashion, the dancers got to spoof the ballet. Very funny and grand fun to be in on their jokes [snow didn't fall from above it was pelted! The ballerinas threw snowballs at each other and the orchestra].
  9. Nothing is better than watching the surprise and delight children have opening presents on Christmas morning. Our son and daughter in law really go all out making this a special time and we are privileged to enjoy it.
Many studies contend that having a readily available gratitude list can help you through your day, increase your sleep at night and give you a generally sunnier attitude. I concur.

Here's hoping that you're making your gratitude list of what you've appreciated from this year, even if you missed 12/12/12 at 12:12.

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Tuesday, December 11, 2012

HONOR THY FATHER, HONOR THY MOTHER

We are very good at celebrations and owe this to Mom and Dad
Today would have been our parents, Bob and Jane's, 69th Wedding Anniversary. Up in the heaven of my imagination, can't you just see them dancing the fox trot with Dad cracking wise making Mom laugh? Happily for all of us, she was not only amused by him but grew to admire and love him. When first they met, he was twenty one and she twenty and Mom was initially put off by his wildness. She was working in downtown Chicago as an artist and he was in the family's Chicago restaurant and they met through mutual friends. She told him he drank too much and more or less dismissed him. The man was persistent and soon his other shining qualities won her over. He had out grown the goofy, gawky stage and his kindness, intelligence, wit and business acuity became more of a draw. Mom decided to take a chance on him and despite WWII they married on December 11, 1943. Thanks to our devoted and caring sister Trisha I have an 8 x 12 of their wedding photo hanging on our wall. Thanks again Trish!

Here are a few of us at another wonderful celebration
Growing up in the chaos of his family*, it's a semi miracle that our Dad was so loyal and true. That was certainly not the role model our paternal Grandparents projected. He must have learned faithfulness and trustworthiness from the unfaithful and the not trustworthy. Sometimes people do that, but most commonly and unfortunately they become similar and not the whole opposite of their parents. I have worked with plenty of adults that have grow up in chaotic and/or violent homes who became organized, responsible and wonderful peacemakers despite the odds against this.  Our Dad's flaws were the anxiety and that he studiously avoided conflict to the point of withdrawal in our home life. Hence the famous, "you're punished" refrain whenever Mom would ask him to help with disciplining us. For all I know, I'm still punished.

Lots of the credit for a stable home life and marriage goes to our Mother. Mom had good role models. By contrast to his chaotic upbringing [Dad chose to live with his mother who benignly neglected him] Mom's family, while not exactly peaceful [Grandpa Webster: "Florence if I say white, you say black, ..."] was stable and loving. One strike against her was she had six kids under the age of ten. Some people thrive with many children, this was not our Mom. Another reality was Dad--- though he was an excellent provider, he was fairly useless with the kids until we were old enough to work along side him. Mom managed to keep us in line, drive us to and fro, provide meals for us and copious relatives, and on rare occasions, able to produce something artistic for herself.


So, simplistically, Dad was the fun and the workhorse and Mom was the drill Sargent and the ballast for the family.

Sibs plus cousins
I seem to be skipping over all of the fun times we had as a family and there were many. Most of it centered around food, singing, the extended family, the lake and the few vacations that we took. It was/is a loving family and we have to credit Bob and Jane for creating a wonderful crew. I feel especially grateful for the transformation that Mom did after Bob died in 1987. She became funny and fun to be with, kinder and very generous. Yes, we do have a lot to honor. Happy Anniversary Mom and Dad!

*see one of the early posts on Anxiet and Drinking...

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Monday, December 3, 2012

Connections: Family History and a Famous Chef




My sister and I love to go to restaurants

The two biggest sellers in any bookstore are the cookbooks and the diet books. The cookbooks tell you how to prepare the food, and the diet books tell you how not to eat any of it.                             Andy Rooney

I just finished reading Yes, Chef by Marcus Samuelsson and periodically throughout the book I was in tears. I kept saying "why am I tearing up" to myself. Many things about the book resonated and were especially meaningful to me.

Marcus Samuelsson was born in Ethiopia, a country where there is enormous deprivation and illness. He, his mother and his sister contracted TB and his mother carried him, and held his sister's hand for 75 miles to seek help for them in the hospital in Addis Ababa. Ultimately his mother died and then, improbably and fortuitously, he and his sister were adopted by a Swedish family. He grew up in the very white Sweden with a loving parents and again, most fortuitously, a kind and dear grandmother who taught him to cook. Part of the magic was he was intensely interesting in cooking or the story would have ended right there. But he was ambitions and driven to be a success to impress his very loved father and to honor his grandmother.

Mom was hostess and helped run our family restaurant



Here's some of the clues to the "why am I tearing up" question. I'm from Chicago and a big somewhat famous restaurant family. I hear other people say that about their families, but it doesn't have the same meaning. Our family's restaurants were generational.

About a century ago [1904] in Chicago, our great grandmother [Mary Nelson Ricketts from Sweden] was widowed when our great grandfather died of TB. Strapped for cash with four sons to raise she did the only thing she knew how to do and opened a restaurant. Mary called it 'Ricketts restaurant'-- how clever. The family lived above the restaurant and it became famous, for the "home of the strawberry waffle". Amazingly, Mary Ricketts did well enough with her hard work, determination and good food that she was able to start each of her sons in a restaurant of their own in the 1920's. One on Oak St., one on Rush St., one near Michigan Ave. and our grandfather John Ricketts' restaurant at 2727 N. Clark St.

In the 40's and 50's my Grandfather John advertised our Ricketts as 'Chicago's most popular restaurant'. Not sure if that's the God's own truth but it was a big fabulous place, huge, luxurious and for a long time wildly popular. In another inspired touch, since the restaurant was only two blocks from Wrigley field, they painted a sign on a rooftop that you could see all over the field that said, "Hit this sign and win $500!--- Ricketts Restaurant". In fact, no one could have possibly hit the sign, it was too far away, though it was a good optical illusion, it looked possible. In the 50 years or so that the sign proclaimed the reward, it was never collected.

Sadly my Grandfather died youngish [64 or so] of a heart attack, my father and his brother took over the restaurant in 1958. It was not all roses and sweetness, my uncle was a very troubled and difficult man, so much so that my father had a series of panic attacks which led to him eventually leaving the N. Clark St. in 1962 for a restaurant of his own in Wheeling, Il. naming it, cleverly enough 'Ricketts Restaurant'. Good thing he did move on, as the neighborhood vastly declined and his brother, John Jr. went out of business in the early sixties.

Starting his own restaurant was a gamble and an adventure. It was not unusual for my father to work fourteen hour days. Unfortunately, he continued to have panic attacks. Bottom line: restaurants are chronically tough businesses and he had six children to support. But with his hard work, determination, good food and charming personality he made a success of the business and the panic attacks eased.

Marcus Samuelsson and I are practically twins. He's Swedish by adoption, me by heritage, his mother died of TB, as did my great grandfather, he was the chef for the Obamas at their inaugural ball in 2008, I voted for and love the Obamas. He likes to cook and loves to eat and so do I. See, twins! OK, he is a world famous chef, had to struggle and work wonky hours to be successful, but I appreciate that!

I do love to cook but watching my father work the hours that he did and knowing what chefs go through to be successful never appealed to me as a career choice. Instead I 'cook' with the ingredients that the clients bring into my office. Sometimes they need more ingredients and I suggest something toothsome. Sometimes I stir the pot, I season my words heavily with just the right amount of spice to add flavor and interest to their lives. Sometimes I have to allow time for the baking process which sometime takes longer than you'd think. Ah, the end product, in truth, is something that the client and I craft together with love. All the best chefs of this world love what they're doing and so do I. That is my definition of success. Ta da.

A la familia
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